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[chelanfa]

Yes, I am confused.
I do not know what life on the MainLand is like. I have no concept as to which side is doing 'right' by anyone. What I do know is that 2 Seasons ago I emerged a Refugee at the Ruins of Silan. That I have ventured about, dug a few harmless holes, and done the bidding of some member of each of the races, and for both of these powers vying for our affection. It has always intrigued me that in all the old stories the gods always fought for the affection of followers. As if they needed us as much, dare I say it, perhaps more, than we needed them. I know the Kami want the destruction of the Goo and I have no problems with destroying something that so clearly brings death and suffering to Atys. I wonder at anyone in fact that would like to study the Goo for their own aims. So by the time I was ready to assist both Karavan and Kami in their separate dealings with the Goo I was in fact ready to begin with a decision.
I do not care for gods, for their hapless activities in our lives. Make no mistake I acknowledge their existence. I recognize the times they do intervene, and even interfere.
I love Atys. I love her beauty and her dangers. As each season passes for me here I no longer wonder at my decision to leave for the surface. This place is beautiful, and this place is ours.

[raisrev1]

*ooc* I assume then you are going Neutral? following part of post assumes that

*ic*
Greetings Young Tryker. I see that you have decided to Renounce the Gods.... How about the Kami or the Karavan... Do you renounce them? If so then I welcome you to the Mainland... Otherwise beware of the Shadows....

[chelanfa]

I love the gods when their beauty and their love for life outweighs their fears of each other, and us. I love their love for Atys, I love the fecundity of Jena and the playfulness of the Kami in service of Ma Duk. But I have no use for their commands, their laws, their overweening desire for control. Surely they know more, but it does not follow that they know better.

((ooc: i hope more than neutral i am portraying someone truly torn by devotion and reason.))

[chelanfa]

I continue to struggle. The love I believe both Jena and the Kami hold for Atys and hominkind keeps me from taking sides in the awful conflict that has apparently been raging between their representatives. Lying under the open stars the other night it became even clearer. How could either be truly a higher power and wish destruction upon the other?
Some wonder about my sanity in questioning the gods. But it is not the gods I question it is our limited understanding of them. Are not the sky above me, the huge circling world with a ring of broken rock above us, the glowing warm sun, and even friendship not signs of something larger than ourselves? Signs of love perhaps.
As I mentioned to someone recently ((hi Jelathnia!)), love is odd. Its outer appearances so varied, but with one common theme: no ill will is wished upon the beloved. Beloved of Jena are we? Beloved of the Kami? Then how could either wish us harm? My own love and loyalty, as frail and limited as they are, would never wish the destruction that both sides claim their gods wish for those who refuse them.
Trust me I have suffered from spurned love before, but angry or hurt as I was would I have destroyed them? No. So are these followers of the gods to tell me that I am more patient, more loving than their higher powers? If anything their love is greater, their patience more enduring.
Yet practically speaking where does this leave this Tryker in the world? I cannot bear the thought that either side would gain the upper hand. Could I serve the Kami against the Karavan in order to bring balance to a world tipsying towards open war? Once again I am left with more questions than answers.

[mikadou]

Much like a love of a mother to protect her child, love can lead to violence against a percieved threat, so is the violence one side's diety offers the other, whom they say is a danger to all hominkind.

The real question is... is it true, that there is no hope for coexistence? Is the other side really all tricks and evil intents? I have a hard time to believe, 100%, that this is true. I've met noble souls who follow both paths, worthy of friendship and respect. I feel sometimes that perhaps, the gods' own biases are fueling this war, more than true imment destruction by the 'other side's' way of life. Perhaps it is wrong of me to question them, but I can't help but wonder.

Hominkind banded together against the kitin, in fellowship. We are trying to rebuild our great cultures. Will a war of annihilation aid the coming of that bright future? I feel not.

[gillest]

Welcome my friend

Listen to the gods (it is always funny to see what they want from us and how they change their mind over the time to better control us..)
Listen to them, but only care for what is true and real: your fellow homins.

Remember the old man words, what we were told when we landed on this planet.. The kitins are the real threat, not our own kind.

Maybe the god realised that the Kitins could not be defeated and they have now decided to make us fight against each other for their name...

(OOC: The words of the old man are in the sig)

/tar Kirey
/Bow