Thoughts to a friend.
Posted: Fri Jun 02, 2006 12:16 pm
Oh! Its you. Welcome. I haven't spoken to you for what seems an eternity.
Take a seat, sorry i haven't been able to tidy my apartment everything is.. oh? yes. thank-you. At least someone can understand that we cant all spend our time lounging about.
So? how have things been? Good. Glad to hear that things have sorted themselves out. How is your beloved one? oh that's really good news! I'm so happy for you two.
Me? well. I am ok, i suppose. There has been allot on my mind lately.
I would love to tell you. but you didn't come round here for me to mindlessly talk about the way Atys is now.
Haha.. you sure you want to hear?
ok.. well i warned you
*smiles kindly*
I am sick. Oh. no, no no. Not that kind of sick.
I am sick and tired, sick and tired of living my life like this. I can still remember what the times were like before all this. Can you? Can u still remember the way things were? There are so few who live to tell the stories of old. The times of peace, the times of love.
But look at where we are now. look at what we have become. All this anger, all this hate, we struggle for land, for a self-righteous living where we can pretned to call ourselves free. Where now life revolves around the dapper and the blade. I am no longer called "brother" but i am now called "foe" buy many who i would have died for.
What do u mean 'who started it'? Well no, I didn't. you didn't. Well. hmm, I guess u are right. The self-proclaimed 'Gods' did start this. They asked us to fight for them, they rallied us to their cause, asking us to 'convert' other homins to follow the way that they have set.
Haha, yes. putting it like that it does seem odd. If one of the divine powers were truly the most supreme then yes, they should fight it out among themselves, It would be nice to see just one power in control. If the kami or karavan were truly so great they should obliterate the other faction themselves. Not use us homins, as puppets, to fight for them. It's true, it's what were are. Puppets. We go around mindlessly following them out of some fear or some hope that they wont hurt us. or that they will provide us with great rewards.
HAHAHA very funny, no I'm not about to start a mutiny. No, because instead of following the Kami or Karavan they would then follow me.. What i mean is WHY follow anyone at all? why fight when sharing would be easier, why struggle by ourselves when united we can acheive anything. The kittin fear us. Its true. they have seen us when we unite. they have felt our hatred towards them, but now. now they lie in wait. watching us homins go about doing our factions bidding. waiting for the moment where we are all filled with hatred towards other homins that we do not see the kittin as a threat.
haha well yes even inside each of the factions there is discontent. Take the other day for example. a group of homins had decided to clear out the lands of an oposing faction.. and asked for all homins who beleived as they did to help them do so, to which they all agreed. but when the time came, when the curtian was lifted and the time to fight was upon them, their 'friends' were no where to be seen. and becuase they had not shown. well, It was a terrrible sight. they were left outnumbered..
I know how hominkind hates each other. I feel it everytime i vist a city. I can't walk into any city without being judged. Judged by the colour of my skin. by the way i hold a mask in appeciation to the kami on my face. I am misunderstood. I am passionate for the kami, but i am passionte for the love that the kami show, and i want to live my life showing as muchy love towards all homins as i can. Sure the kami may have their own way of doing things. Maybe they do care a bit too much about the ecosystem of the planet, about how much we should 'harm' atys. But that doesnt stop them from loving us? I do not care about what a homin looks like, how a homin acts, what they believe in their heart. As long as a homin has a heart that beats then i will show love towards that homin.
No, im not being niave and yes, yes of course there have been times where i have had to fight.. on many occasion have i held swords with a homin who hates me. Even if i was slain by a homin. I would not hold him in anger or hate. Every homin i have fought has fought for a reason that they beleive to worth fighting for. Take you for example.. I know that there have been times in your life where you have fought hard against another homin, It may not even be often. But everytime you have had to fight, you have done it for a purpose that is worth fighting for. Be it by royal decree. or be it by your own will or beliefs.
I just wish there was a way to stop all this. so that no homin would live in fear of other homins..
I long for the day that i can hold hands with my now enimies, embrace them with all the love that a homin can give. No. i cant see that day being soon. tho i wish it to, i want atys to unite again as it did when we came out of exile from the roots.
I fear that there will soon be no homins who know of the love that atys once held. For there are few who are alive to rember how once things were...
*sobs*
Take a seat, sorry i haven't been able to tidy my apartment everything is.. oh? yes. thank-you. At least someone can understand that we cant all spend our time lounging about.
So? how have things been? Good. Glad to hear that things have sorted themselves out. How is your beloved one? oh that's really good news! I'm so happy for you two.
Me? well. I am ok, i suppose. There has been allot on my mind lately.
I would love to tell you. but you didn't come round here for me to mindlessly talk about the way Atys is now.
Haha.. you sure you want to hear?
ok.. well i warned you
*smiles kindly*
I am sick. Oh. no, no no. Not that kind of sick.
I am sick and tired, sick and tired of living my life like this. I can still remember what the times were like before all this. Can you? Can u still remember the way things were? There are so few who live to tell the stories of old. The times of peace, the times of love.
But look at where we are now. look at what we have become. All this anger, all this hate, we struggle for land, for a self-righteous living where we can pretned to call ourselves free. Where now life revolves around the dapper and the blade. I am no longer called "brother" but i am now called "foe" buy many who i would have died for.
What do u mean 'who started it'? Well no, I didn't. you didn't. Well. hmm, I guess u are right. The self-proclaimed 'Gods' did start this. They asked us to fight for them, they rallied us to their cause, asking us to 'convert' other homins to follow the way that they have set.
Haha, yes. putting it like that it does seem odd. If one of the divine powers were truly the most supreme then yes, they should fight it out among themselves, It would be nice to see just one power in control. If the kami or karavan were truly so great they should obliterate the other faction themselves. Not use us homins, as puppets, to fight for them. It's true, it's what were are. Puppets. We go around mindlessly following them out of some fear or some hope that they wont hurt us. or that they will provide us with great rewards.
HAHAHA very funny, no I'm not about to start a mutiny. No, because instead of following the Kami or Karavan they would then follow me.. What i mean is WHY follow anyone at all? why fight when sharing would be easier, why struggle by ourselves when united we can acheive anything. The kittin fear us. Its true. they have seen us when we unite. they have felt our hatred towards them, but now. now they lie in wait. watching us homins go about doing our factions bidding. waiting for the moment where we are all filled with hatred towards other homins that we do not see the kittin as a threat.
haha well yes even inside each of the factions there is discontent. Take the other day for example. a group of homins had decided to clear out the lands of an oposing faction.. and asked for all homins who beleived as they did to help them do so, to which they all agreed. but when the time came, when the curtian was lifted and the time to fight was upon them, their 'friends' were no where to be seen. and becuase they had not shown. well, It was a terrrible sight. they were left outnumbered..
I know how hominkind hates each other. I feel it everytime i vist a city. I can't walk into any city without being judged. Judged by the colour of my skin. by the way i hold a mask in appeciation to the kami on my face. I am misunderstood. I am passionate for the kami, but i am passionte for the love that the kami show, and i want to live my life showing as muchy love towards all homins as i can. Sure the kami may have their own way of doing things. Maybe they do care a bit too much about the ecosystem of the planet, about how much we should 'harm' atys. But that doesnt stop them from loving us? I do not care about what a homin looks like, how a homin acts, what they believe in their heart. As long as a homin has a heart that beats then i will show love towards that homin.
No, im not being niave and yes, yes of course there have been times where i have had to fight.. on many occasion have i held swords with a homin who hates me. Even if i was slain by a homin. I would not hold him in anger or hate. Every homin i have fought has fought for a reason that they beleive to worth fighting for. Take you for example.. I know that there have been times in your life where you have fought hard against another homin, It may not even be often. But everytime you have had to fight, you have done it for a purpose that is worth fighting for. Be it by royal decree. or be it by your own will or beliefs.
I just wish there was a way to stop all this. so that no homin would live in fear of other homins..
I long for the day that i can hold hands with my now enimies, embrace them with all the love that a homin can give. No. i cant see that day being soon. tho i wish it to, i want atys to unite again as it did when we came out of exile from the roots.
I fear that there will soon be no homins who know of the love that atys once held. For there are few who are alive to rember how once things were...
*sobs*